After experiencing childhood trauma and abuse, I suffered decades of toxic relationships, fear of commitment, leaky sexual energy, porn addiction, lying, people-pleasing and substance abuse. The thing is, I couldn’t see these aspects of myself until I did shadow work. Only once I took the time to face my deepest pain, greatest weaknesses and worst behaviours, was I able to reconcile with these parts of myself and step into the drivers seat of my life. And I finally began to attract compatible women. Until then, I'd been hiding so much of my personality out of fear of what women would think of me. But by bringing all of myself to the table, women actually began to trust and respect me. I was now conscious of my potential for mayhem and self-sabotage, and I was able to express those parts of myself, to be navigated together as a team.